jackie

i have to say that i’m PROUD of these kids. as i type, one of these girls is telling me about how she needs help to reach out to her friend at school. gosh, they may be a handful to handle and sometimes i already feel the exhaustion i will have in a few minutes even before i step into HOC on sundays or their homegroup on friday nights because of their explosive energy that never seems to cease. but when i see them with their smiles that greets me at the door and their warm hugs, how can i not love on these kids, despite knowing that i cant control them? seeing them whole-heartily sing during worship, pray even though they are shy, lead bible studies, bring their friends to our outings/events, speak during service, i see just how willing they are to TRY.

we can say that they’re young and this & that, but i see soo much in them. we may think that we cant learn from the younger ones but i feel like they challenge me all the time in the little things they do. i also see their maturity in facing problems and trying to fight through hard times. it’s hard being their age w/ all that peer pressure. but once someone reminds them of their identity in Christ and God’s promises for their lives, they learn to look ahead and keep pushing. that’s why i love my youth. you give them a little nudge here and some encouragement on the side and they can go a long way. how can i NOT be proud of them by seeing how far they’ve already gone? =]

UC MERCY (better late than never)

its always a blessing and quite the experience in MERCED every time i go back, if you havent already heard. hearing their heart for the campus, because merced was definitely not the majority of the student’s first choice, lets me see their perseverance to keep asking for the “impossibles.” there really must be something special going on in this school when the first graduating class of 2009 at UCM is still there AT merced, either interning or having a job near the campus when most of them live in socal. going back up a few weeks ago and catching up with them really let me see these girls’ 4 years of labor and toil. and now i know why they love it here so much… just go up for yourself and see their fruits =]

dressing up never gets old =]

“life is too short yet people still complain about having nothing to do when they’re bored”

- jasmine wu during our dinner conversation

i always try to think twice before telling someone that im “bored.” every time i think of the word “bored” or “boring,” it always brings me back to when randy said during a message… that “the bible isnt boring. if you think its boring, YOU’RE boring. God’s not boring.” and thats when it hit me. what he said is true. how can i be bored of reading God’s word? THE BOOK that has recorded so much of what He’s done and is still doing… from the beginning of time, creating the universe to providing for the hungry and weary, the One who is so holy and still closer than my troubles, the KING of all kings and whom I may call my Father, where i am satisfied and find my JOY, and knowing that this is His love letters for ME. what is it that makes me bored of something? its my lack of interest in something. maybe i need to re-evaluate myself before the “b” word comes out of my mouth again

if i lack an interest in one thing, then maybe i need to stop sitting around and complain that what im doing is boring and find something that sparks my interest so i can use my time wiser. life IS too short to be bored. tomorrow isnt promised and it would be a shame to waste a day being bored and unproductive. its always fun to live a little, do something spontaneous. if not doing something out of the blue, i want to at least know what i need to do and do it. i dont think i like the b-word anymore

my heart frowns every time i walk pass by my guitar, knowing that i have abandoned it once again

i love how every time i play my guitar, i lose my sense of time and forget about everything around me. its such a blissful moment and i can play for hours on end. i love it! i get sad when i have to stop playing because i’m probably running late to go somewhere or have something else that i needed to do. i havent touched it much nowadays because i’ve just been feeling so… busy…

allanzzz:

evelyn is jackie’s mother.

every time i order dominos pizza, its always the same guy that delivers to my house. and the only way i know its the same guy is because he brings up the same topic every time: my uncles lamborghini.

he always asks about my uncles car because he saw it in our garage like a year ago when he delivered to us and would always talk for 5 minutes straight while i just stand there and wait, listening to him talk about cars, even though i dont have much of an interest in kurazieeh exotic cars. but it just made me think a bit when we had that one-way conversation. i think people just want someone to talk to and listen to them. it can show that you at least care a bit about them when your using your time, which you cant take back, to just listen

there’s always something about night time when i have more of an urge to blog. i love it when its late at night, where i have more thinking time to collect my thoughts because everyone’s asleep, its quiet and theres no distractions around me. i can just type out whats running through my head. but there’s always a down side to blogging late at night because i get tired and want to sleep. therefore i dont blog what i have wanted to blog and over time, i get lazy to write down previous thoughts… kind of like right now

good night